I really am. I have some slight narcissistic tendencies and this competitive need to drive myself constantly. A lot of it probably comes from my years as a martial artist and competing for so long. You’re constantly told you’re competing against yourself and while it is true, in reality you’re also competing against others. It took me a long time to get over that mentality and I still deal with it now.
Now how does that relate to Patreon and content creation in general? I’ve been doing this gig for almost 3 years (February 2019 will be 3 years!) and during that time I’ve had Patreon and taken it down and had it again and taken it down. I have to stop doing that because the first time I put up Patreon I actually had some Patrons! If you’ve listened to my podcast, and especially recently, Episode 128 in fact, I’ve been going through a lot of personal stress the past 2 years. I keep veering off track, but the competition part of me, I’ll see others doing content and it’s easy to get jealous of others success. Seeing that only wants me to push myself to do better. To be bigger and better.
So Patreon….I’m terrible at it. Sometimes you expect to put something up and wait for the people to rush in. It doesn’t work like that, ever. You need to have people know you have something and work on it from there. I haven’t been doing that. Sure, I mention patreon in my show notes, social media, but when you come here it’s blank, empty and that’s my fault. I’ve been so busy with life, work, and creating content but not focusing on here.
So I am going to try and do better. Maybe more update posts like this, and maybe also try and link my content? That would help…possibly. Maybe…